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(Thursday) 

Distractions and Goals

Notice that I wrote this yesterday (Thursday 21/6) There are a great deal of distractions at the moment and with my summer packed with a lot things to do I barely have time to do anything else except work, online course, read among other things. Last night I completed 2 videos with a total of 2 hours flying by. However it was so worth the 2hrs - the course leader makes me smile so much. I learned a great deal of techniques and insight and now I have, i think, 4 videos left AND i have decided to buy Part 2. I'm simply too curious to quit!

Another thing about last night is since I have a packed schedule I don't have time to "meet up" since I will miss valuable information at school. I can't tell you everything but I guess Winston Churchill's quote: "If you're going through hell, keep walking" gives you an insight about the situation. It's overwhelming and the headache just won't leave any peace so I'm trying to prioritise and truth is i have just one lakshya right now and that is what everything is circulating around. So investing in anything new, right now, is a lot to demand but i guess people just hear what they want to hear. 

(Today) 

Never Settle

Never ever settle, woke up later than planned. Last night I fell asleep as soon as i got home. Mom wanted to talk but i think that the state she saw me in was enough. I was right off exhausted. It took a maximum of 30 seconds from the moment she closed my door to me too surrender to the dreams. 

Getting up at 9am and being ready until 11 is a lag of 3 hours. I took a shower to freshen up and left my hair as it is, i love the messiness and playfulness it radiates.

I can't stop thinking about yesterday. After work I followed "Amnesia-girl" to the train station and talked with her, I simply love her Spanish songs but before i could hear the whole song her train arrived and we departed. At the same time Puffe texted about being home so I walked to his place.

We waited for about 10-15 minutes maybe until Mazen showed up with a woman. First i just gave him the thoughts and examples of improvements he could do - after that I showed him the header i had done for him and he got blown away - i could see that he loved it! 

There will be some slight changes such as flipping the R & B in "Garbo" and the right corner will have a more midnight blue fade. I will also add a galaxy spin in the left corner and maybe stretch the header a bit, but I'll do that when i have time which is probably on Sunday (earliest.) 

When the talking was done, there was more talking this time about the future and I appreciate that he open-heartedly shared his dreams and visions and the only thing I can reveal is that - i know it can work out because IF all three of us get together and INVEST in this his idea can become a multi-million-dollar-business and i'm saying this from the professional experience I've gained over the years. Around 7-8pm we decided to go out and have a bite. We went to the pier and on the way I met an old friend, Patricia, whom I haven't seen in like forever and i can say this: I don't have a facebook account. We exchanged phone numbers and the guys and me continued. I saw my psychology teacher, my swedish teacher and the history teacher I had in my upper secondary high school. At first i was considering to go and say hi,  but decided not too, it didn't feel right. We walked to a boat and had dinner. I ate minimum. Wasn't hungry because I had so much in my head and a funny thing i remember is that we began talking about how "complicated" it is to get into a relationship. It was too amusing to listen to how the guys thought and I was mostly quiet because it was nice to see the sunset. Thing is, there is nothing about playing games. If you like someone, step up, get to know the person! Don't make up a fake image of how he/she is. If there had been someone I was thought was cute or handsome I would have made a move but as far as my gaze went, i only saw drunk and unattractive men. Harsh yes but the truth. NOTICE that this is what i thought then. LOVE is a subject with no - with no fixed solution. Every case is different and it is all about how much you are willing to go to find the man/woman you want to spend the rest of your life with.

After the supper, we walked back to Puffe's place and he asked something about his movie collection and well the answer was the Lord of the Rings trilogy not being a blu-ray collection. :P Then he followed to the bus-stop and i saw Monnie on the way out. I took the bus home changed and Zzzzzzzz...............

 

Some reflections of the day is that Puffe did not tell me about it going like this but its okay. I can think clearly about it and Mazen is indeed a visionary. I loved the things he told me about but here is the thing. I'm on a completely different wavelength with both of the guys. I can't just swing the doors to my life. He is, still, a stranger. I do know Puffe because of the contact we've had but Mazen, it has just been minutes in years however he is a great guy. Funny, weird, energetic simply a nice person but he still got a way to go. The only thing I can do right now. Is the header. About the other ideas. I need time. If they don't have it. I'm sorry to disappoint them. Integrity is knowing your own limits and staying with your principles. Which is exactly what i will do. I won't get into something and do it improperly. I'm all about HIGH QUALITY and extraordinary results. So there will be NO doubt in sloppiness or unfinished business when you have me in a team. I think i have my work colleagues right now to prove it.

Half the day is gone and I have to get some reading done, then watch a few videos and answer my emails. I read one from my godmother this morning and I am worried sick about her. She is in the hospital right now. Please pray she'll be better. 

Love, 

Wave x

Song of the Day: Dance Alone by Love Generation